Have you ever been in the position of being nervous, for no apparent reason and you simply cannot stop talking?
I find this happens to me fairly frequently, probably a little too often for my own liking and it specifically happened last night.
I went to meet a really old friend. I haven't seen her since we were 16 and I'm not entirely sure why, but we didn't part on good terms. After a strange serendipitous meeting of her boyfriend at a work event, she got in touch and we arranged to meet for a drink.
Before I got to the pub, I had a mild panic attack. How do you catch up on 10 years? What did I have to say? Am I actually a really boring person? I rang up my best friend and tried to make her give me conversation topics about myself. She told me I was being ridiculous. I panicked more.
By the time I got to the pub, I had worked myself up into a bit of a frenzy and I'm afraid the poor girl felt the brunt of it when she sat down.
Out of my mouth, uncontrolled, tumbled 10 years worth of 'catching up', I expect if felt like being hit with a verbal steam train. More than once, I revealed fairly personal information, without any idea why I was doing so, I kept losing my train of thought, and when I asked her how I got to that particular topic, she had no idea- bad sign. In fact, once or twice I swear I had an out of body experience and stepped back, looking at my babbling self wondering what the hell I was saying. Embarrassed doesn't even begin to describe my feelings towards myself.
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